So New Year’s went over well and now I am back in school.  3.5 months until graduation.  I have to say, this semester has already been very challenging and the capstone at the end will determine my destiny.  I’m excited and scared at the same time.  I want this semester to be perfect so I have to be careful as to not get caught up in too much anxiety about it and just get it done.  Getting it done requires a lot of reading, studying, and hard work.  I’ve made it this far and just having three more months to go, I know I can pound this out and walk in May.   It’s still been hard focusing fully under so much grief and pain.  With my grandparents being in the condition they are in and the loss of my mother in June 2019, I have had a lot of numbness surround me.  It’s just hard being motivated right now but I’m getting the work done.  The real test will be the exams which are coming up fast.  Alex and I have been having a good time playing games like Jenga and Taboo and going to the greenway together.  I’ve been running for 30 minutes at the gym pretty much five days a week and that makes me feel better.  I try to stay connected to my family as much as I can even if that is through facetime.  I did not edit these pictures too great but wanted to include them as they are inspiring and dreamlike. I also pictured one of me when I was 14 years old with my mother. I think it was Thanksgiving or Christmas.  She was so, so beautiful inside and out and I love looking back at our pictures together even if I am going through puberty in them.  Alex and I are going to look at a house today and then we have plans for a luxurious date night on Tuesday. His brother and sister-in-law gave us a gift card for Christmas for a restaurant called Peppervine.  I can’t wait to dress up and have a good night out. We haven’t done that in such a long time.  Pictures to come!  It’s 9:40 on a Sunday morning. I made a cup of coffee when I got up around 8A.  I’ve been reading over some material for school and organizing some assignments.  I saw a post the other day that said “get up, have a cup of coffee, and start studying. This inspired me to get out of bed as I have been in a deep sleep for several days.  I think it is because of my medication and I am going to talk to my PA about it on Tuesday.  We have MLK Jr. Day off of work on Monday.  I’m taking Tuesday off too to have some time to get caught up on school work and just recoup.  I hope for the best out of these extra days and that I can get to a place where I feel OK to keep going.  It’s been really hard to keep up these days.  I’ve got to get my mind straight to keep it together and stay caught up with things.  I’ll be in touch soon and let you know how things are progressing with college.  I’m almost there!!!


Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s